Feeling off these days

I'm not entirely sure why...but I've been awfully depressed lately. I don't really know why. Things are going pretty well. The ACen stress is over. Things are going well at work. I've been a little too tired to do much in the way of jewelry lately but that's nothing to get depressed over really. I've been through much worse and come out less depressed. And I think the fact that I don't know what made me depressed in the first place is making me more depressed. And that could easily become a downward spiral that I don't want to tumble down.

I wonder if I'm finally decompressing now that ACen is over. The con itself was okay but everything leading up to it...Saber might have broken me a bit. Saber made me cry. Saber made me nearly burst into tears at my desk at work multiple times. That is not a problem I want to attempt to explain to anyone at work. On the one hand, I look at my list of things I want to make/finish and think I should get to work on those. On the other, I can't bring myself to really think about any more cosplay at this point.

I'm feeling anti-social yet I don't exactly want to be alone. Maybe I want to be around different people than I usually am? I don't know. I need to meet new people. But I've always been somewhat socially inept so I don't really know how 20-somethings go about meeting people these days.

And today's just been dragging on and on. Probably because I have been by myself. And I haven't been myself and I know that. I've been trying to clean up the mess I call my room all day and I just can't focus. It looks slightly better than it has but still a work in progress. The weather isn't helping either. Chicago's been dark and depressing all week.

At least my health insurance kicks in soon. Maybe I should go to my doctor and talk to her about going back on anti-depressants. Cause I could do without the feeling that I'm just going through the motions everyday.